Journal Entry #1

In your journal, write the eight areas of the self-assessment and record your scores for each:

1. 47 Accepting Personal Responsibility
2. 43 Discovering Self-Motivation
3. 44 Mastering Self-Management
4. 18 Employing Interdependence
5. 63 Gaining Self-Awareness
6. 45 Adopting Lifelong Learning
7. 22 Developing Emotional Intelligence
8. 52 Believing in Yourself

Write about the areas in which you had your highest scores. Explain why you think you scored higher in these areas than in others. Also, explore how you feel about these scores. Your entry might begin, "By doing the self-assessment, I learned that I..."

Gaining Self Awareness:
"Having self awareness allows you to see where your thoughts and emotions are taking you. It also allows you to see the controls of your emotions, behavior, and personality so you can make changes you want." -www.pathwaytohappiness.com

By doing this self-assessment, I learned that I do have control over my emotions, behavior, and personality which, I completely agree, gives me the full ability to make the changes I want. I also learned though that I don't make the changes I want to and need to. For what reasons? Well this is why we are here. I'm ready for that change.
When I realized that this particular area was my highest score out of them all, I was extremely shocked. I am very aware of my thoughts and emotions and behaviors. And my On Course text book states, "Successful People: gain self awareness, consciously employing behaviors, beliefs, and attitudes that keep them on course." I employ behaviors, beliefs, and attitudes that keep me afloat, but definitely not on course.

Believing in Yourself:
By doing this self-assessment, I learned... Well I didn't learn it just by doing this self assessment. I have known for a few years now my capability of believing in myself. Buuuuut, what I did learn after interpreting this self assessment is this: I do believe in myself but maybe it's only my outer self. If I believed as much in my inner self as I do my outer self I probably wouldn't be on the journey I am presently.


Write about the areas in which you had your lowest scores. Explain why you think you socred lower in these areas than in others. Also, explore how you feel about these scores. Remember the saying,, "If you keep doing what you've been doing, you'll keep getting what you've been getting." With this thought in mind, write about any specific changes you'd like to make in yourself during this course. Your entry might begin, "By doing the self-assessment, I also learned that I..."

Employing Interdependence:
By doing the self-assessment, I also learned that maybe I am too independent when it comes down to asking for assistance/help. Being a female, I know that the majority of us, even in todays society give off the perception of dependent. Which, what female really doesn't fantasize about Mr.Right coming into their lives, sweeping them off of their feet, and taking care of them for the rest of their lives? But besides the point, I can definitely do without. But I personally don't like anyone to know that I need any kind of assisstance. I never ever ask for help because my mentality is, "I'm independent. I don't need to rely on anybody. I don't need anything from anybody." Which is funny because I do rely solely on 2 people: my mom and dad.

Developing Emotional Intelligence:
By doing the self-assessment, I also learned that my emotions are out of control. When I am angry, I am angry. When I am sad and depressed, I am sad and depressed. When I am happy and content, I am happy and content. The book states "Struggling-live at the mercy of strong emotions such as anger, depression, anxiety, or a need for instant gratification." To me, it's sickening. And sheds a little light on where my confidence lies in myself. Because boy oh boy is that gratification part true. When I do something good, I expect you to at least acknowledge and appreciate it everytime. And if you don't, then I sit back, throw these temper tantrums, stomp around and show my ass and rebel. It's as simple as that. Why does it feel more like an impulse and a reaction than a choice being made that I can control?